Things I want to change about myself

I came across an online personality test tonight. I must admit that sometimes I really enjoy such stuff.

Went through the whole business for about 20 minutes. And it was really interesting. There was this question on what is the first thing I want to change about myself. And have a look at their options! Phew! There was an impulsive YES to each one of them. Stubbornness, lack of discipline/disorganized, lethargic, inactive etc etc. Come on, give me a break! Finally, I settled with the one that said "Not enough drive (motivation)". I believe (or discovered right there!) it is the root cause to my loong "I want to change this about myself" list. Though its very frustrating to know all bad things about yourself in one day, I dont really regret taking that test. I really want to change for the better. And its high time. I just need to start off well, I know I can manage later. I have to learn to be more active and lively through the day. I tend to "makhaofy" a lot of time. But now, this has to change.. Enough, I will follow the rules.

And its already the 2nd semester!

After "makhaofying" my last semester badly, I've come back to kgp to discover more about life, IIT and myself..


why does everybody call me the busy-bee these days??

why?

My "fifth-love" gtalk is in a bad mood. Complain: I hardly come online.

why?

what have I been doing?

studying..

why? (me???)

I attend lectures nowadays.

why?

I am not watching any movies.

why??

My wingies complain that my room is too clean to be a dwelling place. (??)

why?

what has happened to me?? A girl who would wake up till 6 am to finish off seasons of "FRIENDS" even when she had classes that day is now setting an alarm at 7 am next day to get up and study. Is it normal?

No, I dont think so. There is something inside me. I have always been scared of it. Its growing. So? Is it too much now? Can I no longer be normal?

YES, I want to face it now. Someone's love and trust gives me the strength. I dont fear myself anymore. I want change.

And its going to arrive soon :)

my first day at college

Dont worry, I'm not going to describe what my college looks like and stuff like that..

Though, if you dont mind, I would tell you about my first day at IITkgp. Not that something interesting happened, but I was quite amazed at almost everything.. There were about 1500 people trying to fit into that Vikramshila complex where we now have our lectures (so, hardly visit it). Our registration process was going on.. and as I had imagined there was a 1 mile long queue ahead of me! I was about to scream when the bro of my friend turned up and got us to the front of the row! He'd already declared, "You dont need to worry when I am around." I could have kissed him for that but he was younger to me, you know.
Somehow got over with that registration process at around five. And yes, how can I forget about lunch that day! I was told we're going to some restaurant. But, but, but.... I landed up in a roadside lousy dhaba which they said was called DREAMLAND. Truly, it left me dumbstruck. Not only that, I came to know that there were only these kinds in our college. Leave aside any KFC or McDonalds, there was not even a single passable restuarant out there!
Then there was hostel. I had been praying all through the journey for it to be decent. Though it wasn't bad, but a little more tidier would have sufficed. I did not find my roommate in there. Mom was pretty happy that she
was from Punjab. Though, I was a bit sceptical about that. Anyways, I decided not to think much and left for my uncle's place. Ya, he lives about an hour away from kgp. That was a bit comforting. But then came the dinner, aunty had specially prepared for me, I should not say it was bad, but it surely didn't suit my north-Indian taste buds. We are used to spicy food and what I got there was not even properly salted. I somehow finished it and knocked off. Kgp was growing upon me... even in my dreams